3 posts tagged “home”
1. Get haircut to prevent looking like sonic the hedgehog any longer. (DONE!)
2. Go to work and realize just how far behind I am since missing over a week because both of my kids and myself had the flu. (DONE!)
3. Reschedule counseling because I need to catch up some at work. (DONE!)
4. Start preparing for trip to the beach. (Still in progress.)
5. Apply to colleges that I want to attend and hope that they will accept me. (Yeah, still working on that.)
6. Have a house that smells like fecal matter because my son stuffed a formula one matchbox car down the upstairs toilet, which resulted in having to rip out the wall and the plumbing in the downstairs laundry room to dislodge said car. (DONE!)
7. Have brand new porcelain tile in downstairs bathroom covered in black water, which will mean bleaching the hell out of it tonight and having the tile installer come back tomorrow to check the damage instead of grouting the tile tonight. (DONE!)
8. Laugh to keep from crying. (DONE!)
9. Attempt to keep Bug from sticking her hand down my shirt as some sort of delayed reaction to being weaned under emergency circumstances a month ago. (Still working on that!)
10. Realize that there are positive aspects to all of this even though I have to look for them. (DONE!)
and not the draft button? my bad.
Here's my post from Sunday:
List of items to finish around teh house today:
1. Finish going through mom's clothes and other items in her room. It shouldn't look like she just left for hospice anymore.
2. Move furniture upstairs to give Bug her own room.
3. Finish all laundry.
4. Clean kitchen and mop floor.
I know that I lived a charmed life. I really do know that but sometimes it's very hard for me to see the forest for the trees. I am able to attend college. I am able to have a house. I have two very smart, very funny kids. I have a sober husband. I have the best friends a woman could ask for in life. I have two dogs who love me no matter what, and a cat who thinks that I'm really cool when I feed her.
I have a neighbor playing the fiddle in a perfect temperature evening while I sit on my porch. That's pretty fucking cool actually! Wow, they're pretty good. We live in a weird spot acoustically so I don't know which specific house it's coming from but I keep clapping after each song in hopes that they will hear me.
Back to what I was doing. See, I know all those things, but on days like today I can't seem to get out of my rut of negative thinking. I need to keep reading the top part to myself while I listen to my fiddle playing neighbor.
